Pisces bf n a confusing situation?

Me n my bf are suppose to be in love. Today im trying to conditon myself ot not feel deep love for him that would allow me to forgive him and us to be ok like things normally happen. He was suppose to be leaving this past Thursday for South America . He was spending time on an island since this past Saturday. We talked Tuesday for like 10 minutes or so and I haven't heard anything from him since. Not once did he mention what time was his flight Thursday for South America he seem to be not as detailed as I'd like him to be. Infact it kind of annoys him when i always have to ask what i call 'follow up questions' to really get the jist of what is really happening. I was suppose to call him the Wednesday night before he leave but I couldnt. Im wondering if this is why he hasn't contacted me to let me know if he made it safely or not. I mean sometimes he does things just to do it. We're suppose to have an understanding about stuff but sometimes i just feel he just wants to do what he feel without any thought or care for the situation he is creating. Alot of things he does is uneccessary like he told me Tuesday night oh im going to this party and i was like ok cool have fun .. like he expects me to flip out or something and when i called him later that night he was like oh i didn't go i slept. Like he would tell me he didn't went even if he went theres alot of silly games sometimes he even said he say things sometimes just coz he's bored..sometimes i just feel im with a manipulator who only sees things how he wants to. Sometimes i feel he is confused about alot of things..sometimes i even wonder if he question if he feels he is in the right place. should i even worry about how this man thinks? . My biggest thing is ... don't do something that makes me feel not good about our relationship then show up in my face acting like nothing happened or what happened is not worth getting upset over when it is. I dont want him to come back and talk lovey dovey stuff when he knows in his heart he hasnt been doing right. And Im not even talking about cheating..Its about knowing he could of let me know he reached safely or not. I dont know if this man has a clear idea of what is acceptable or even cares. Sometimes its scary how he can be one way but i feel he's just so close to breaking all of his promises or doing things to jeopardize relationships not even with me but with his family also. It puzzles me and I wonder if this man is still nursing broken hearts in relationships with women n his father therefore lives his life half trusting half tricking people. He doesn't think he is full of tricks n games but i know he is.